Dear lonely soul, I feel you

Did you miss yet another train? with all kinds of scattered thoughts that poked your head. Somehow you did not feel like going home?

You felt unknowingly lonely and devastated at the breakfast table,

I feel that too.

I was completely lost when I was returning home from work. I feel like I am trapped by monsters on all sides, I am afraid that there are times when I feel so suffocated inside that the very next thing I want to do is to run away. Thoughts, that keep coming to me.

Did you want to kill yourself too? Weren't you afraid of the sugary smiles all around?

I know it happens to you because I feel it too. It happens to everyone. But then, there is nothing to be afraid of. We all die each day. Dying is easy and it is the ultimate sleep. I know, I have learned that through years.

Are you scared that you would look ugly if you eat that last piece of pizza? Go get that dress which shows your collar bone. Do not put makeup if you don't feel like it, you don't have to put an extra effort to hide your dark circles. Go finish off that last episode you wanted to watch, or that particular novel that is still kept on your shelf. Go get it.

If you want to sing? Do it! nobody cares if you have a voice like a toad. To finish off that half - sipped coffee or that half-written letter which is still waiting for you to be filled with words of love and care. Click pictures. Make memories. Because my darling, nobody would judge you today.

It's okay. If today was a bad day. Tomorrow might be a happy one. You will be stronger and happier than today. You ask me if I sound so confident? because everything happens for a reason. I believe things which are meant to be will always be there. Carry your heart with you, see how things change. Cry if you want to, loudly, don't be ashamed of it. Nobody will stop you, send that reckless mail to him which you have still saved in your drafts. My dear, tonight is the day, nobody will stop or judge you for the way you are. Go take your dream job you always wanted to take. Because tonight my dear, nobody will dare to stop you. Tonight, you will be nothing but yourself.

So do you still feel lonely and sad ? while sitting on the empty coffee shop, seeing other couples, or while taking the bus from work? It doesn't matter anymore. A part of you dies every day, it will again feel sad and devastated but that won't stop you from living. You will live with memories, and mostly be yourself. I say this because I have realized it now that there is nothing beautiful about swollen eyes and a broken heart. Last time I checked broken pencils can be used for writing again.

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About the Author

Poonam Chatterjee is a 26-year-old budding author, pet lover, and foodie. From a tender age of ten, she found her calling in the written word and since then, has been scribbling away her unconventional ideas, sometimes in the last pages of notebooks and sometimes on online blogs. Writing gives her happiness like no other thing.